Life's a journey... here and living it!

Life's a journey...   here and living it!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Times are not always sunshine

but they will get better. Most of the people that know me already know that my husband told me recently that he never loved me and that he wants a divorce. We have been married for almost 21 years. I gave him my whole heart and he broke mine. He continues to hurt me, but I will overcome this and I will survive. I deserve more than this and if this is all he has to give then I'm much better off without him...his loses not me. I will not put him down. I will just walk away and make something new and better of my life. If you would please say prayers for me that I continue to stand strong, hold my head up high, and to know that there is something better waiting for me out there. I will overcome this and I will be stronger from this!!! I have a wonderful family and awesome friends that are helping me get though this and I thank each one of you for being there and listening to me. You're whats helping get through this.

From this I have decided to take that leap and become a professional photographer. I plan to enroll in college when I move back to Tulsa in photography and then open my own business after I finish school. I know this will be hard, but I'm strong and I will do this for myself. I'm hoping to move this summer after my daughter Jessie graduates from high school. She is finishing up a year early and I'm very proud of her. I'm very sad to say that my youngest daughter Kimi has decided to say with her father. I will miss her very much, but will honor her wishes. It's so hard for a mother (when I did not want this) to say good bye and it will probably be the hardest thing I've had to do in my life yet. I love her very much and have told her that she is always welcome to come see me.

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, how brave you are, what a strong and courageous way to look at your life ahead. Times are not always sunshine, and sometimes life is so so hard, but we have to remember that it is short, and it is all we have, and to be making the best of it, and taking care of YOURSELF....BRAVO TO YOU

pepsigirl said...

Oh Denise, you are in my prayers. I'm sorry you are going through this, you deserve so much more and I'm so proud of you for grabbing hold, standing up for yourself, and going for your dream!! Photography RAWKS! You RAWK! XXXOOO

Anonymous said...

I just found you blog on the Freckle Friends site and I am so sorry. My prayer and thoughts go out to you and your family during this hard time. Best of luck!
Jane
Corona , CA

As The World Scraps said...

oh my Denise I am so sorry. I stalked you today after wondering what happened to you in a contest you were in with me. I am sooooo sorry. You sound very strong and staying focus on your life. I am sooo sorry again.... can I say JERK for you!!!?!

Janie said...

You know I'm here for you. I am so proud of you. You are a strong and beautiful woman that WILL make it through this.

Stayce said...

Wow Denise

You are so brave. I will pray for you and your family.

If there is ever anything i can do, please let me know.

{Susan...Seriously.} said...

denise...i'm sending you lots of prayers and positive thoughts. best of luck to you, girl!! hang in there and pursue your dreams!!

Heredia Family/Yvie said...

I am so sorry to hear this, sending you lots of prayers and positive thoughts your way.

Chris said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I have been there in your shoes and I know it is not easy. I have heard those exact words. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I can say from experience that it does get easier as time goes on. Stay strong and go for your dream, you will be so glad that you did.

Barb said...

Oh, Denise. I just dropped by your blog today, as I realized I hadn't been around in awhile.

I'm so sorry to hear about the difficult time you are going through. I am refreshed by the attitude, grace, and confidence with which you are moving forward.

You are in my thoughts.

delder21 said...

Wow. You are strong Denise. You will survive. I know it hurts, I can only imagine how much. My heart aches for you. I'll keep you and your daughters in my prayers.

.jessica. said...

huge huge huge HUG to you!!!! i am so proud of you for keeping a positive attitude about this. and bravo for going for your dream!!!! you take awesome pictures and will be an awesome photographer!!!! keep your chin up and if you ever need to talk or need anything, please let me know!!!! (((HUG)))

Dawn said...

Wow Denise, you are totally in my thoughts and prayers. I am so impressed by your courage, and proud of your focus and drive!

Keep your head up, your future has only just begun!
Hugs to you!
Dawn

amy said...

I am so sorry Denise! You keep your head held high and pursue your dreams...you are in my prayers!
((hugs)))
amy

Lesli said...

I'm so sorry Denise - you are in my prayers. Good luck on your new goals!!! I bet you will do awesome!


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