but they will get better. Most of the people that know me already know that my husband told me recently that he never loved me and that he wants a divorce. We have been married for almost 21 years. I gave him my whole heart and he broke mine. He continues to hurt me, but I will overcome this and I will survive. I deserve more than this and if this is all he has to give then I'm much better off without him...his loses not me. I will not put him down. I will just walk away and make something new and better of my life. If you would please say prayers for me that I continue to stand strong, hold my head up high, and to know that there is something better waiting for me out there. I will overcome this and I will be stronger from this!!! I have a wonderful family and awesome friends that are helping me get though this and I thank each one of you for being there and listening to me. You're whats helping get through this.
From this I have decided to take that leap and become a professional photographer. I plan to enroll in college when I move back to Tulsa in photography and then open my own business after I finish school. I know this will be hard, but I'm strong and I will do this for myself. I'm hoping to move this summer after my daughter Jessie graduates from high school. She is finishing up a year early and I'm very proud of her. I'm very sad to say that my youngest daughter Kimi has decided to say with her father. I will miss her very much, but will honor her wishes. It's so hard for a mother (when I did not want this) to say good bye and it will probably be the hardest thing I've had to do in my life yet. I love her very much and have told her that she is always welcome to come see me.